You and I…

……It was I who went on a trip to Rajasthan ~ from Mumbai to Udaipur to Jaipur to Agra which I was so disinterested. Be that as it may, it was consign for I to go to these spots particularly to the city of affection Agra. Life appears to be fascinating when “YOU meets I”. YOU and I are two sides of same coin. Evidently one yet extraordinary; distinctive in their ways of life.

And this was the time, love emerged; for I and it was special and for the first time.

YOU was special for I

You was so close for I

Was that love?

After the two-day trip in the city of Love it was time to leave with the hardest good-bye and a half hug and finish the journey.  After the hardest good-bye I was back to the city life, I still wonder…

Was it love? Love for what? Love for YOU?

What was so different in this trip?

Why after almost so many months I regardless loved the trip?

Is it accurate to say that it was the fun moments You & I shared at hostel?

Was it the rhythm of the dancing feet where I mesmerized YOU?

Or was it when I loved when YOU gave those hugs and kiss and held I so tight, I felt so high, I felt just so right. There were butterflies in the stomach, going around in circles. I was not tired of blushing with oneself.  I was in euphoria with universe to experience love which is just beyond eternity

Or was it “YOU” due to which the trip was the most memorable one among so many trips further.

Or was it YOU in I?

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Even after I came to the city that never sleeps, the 10 digit number was still active for both You and I.  

Next what?

Does You and I become WE?

Was it just the story of I?

Did You have other side of the story too?

Was it a heart-break?

Or was that the last meet?

Do they meet again?

This is definitely not the end of the story. This story is more interesting a head.

To know what happen next, keep lusting with my words…

May be you will know the whole story when the words wed and bound to spend a life together under one shelter which will be my book.

So everyone who is reading this, start traveling, you never know when YOU & I become WE….

Happiness looks gorgeous on me

IMG_20170316_131620Isn’t it okay to gracefully turn 28 and single – while adding someone in your life is still on hold?

So what if I am just 28, a woman who is changing with looks and body. Growing each day with different challenges.

So what if I give priority to my career?

What happens if you see your crushes and loves with someone else at this age of life?

So what if your self-respect is more important than your ego?

Isn’t is okay if you are underweight? Body shaming was always a depressing factor in my life.

So what if I am knowing the importance of food and my body now and sometimes mirror not being my best friend.

So what if I choose to wear clothes which comfort me?

Isn’t it okay if you are on the journey of being your own self?

I believe age is not only a two digit number but it sometimes teaches you and brings you closer to the destiny. Destiny of flying. Touching the sky. Adoring the waves. Being committed to nature. And always protected for being in the womb of the universe.

However, all appear to be baseless on the grounds that I took judging as a critical part of individuals in my life. I will discover my way; here some place not among others perspective but rather in me since I choose to be happy. To shine. To be beautiful. To respect and listen to my body. And finally to listen to my soul…

I trust that it’s absolutely alright to blush for yourself.

Since to know yourself is likewise a reason in your life.

Furthermore, it is such a delightful journey of truly being you to stroll with the light and kiss the earth. Additionally, it is so flawless when you make your grass greener and this time on your side.

With all these being an infinite beauty from a girl to a lady, I am in a relationship with my own self.

Such a large number of individuals pinged me after reading my last post on Depression. Asking me how I had the courage to compose what I went through because large portions of them were touched.  I had no answer but I think I have started lusting with the words which may some point of my life will sail between the pages and would ink it with my name. Since happiness looks gorgeous on me.

~Happiness~ Me

BLOCKING TO UNBLOCKING ~ DEPRESSION

I wasn’t mindful what it implies unless I experienced it in last one year. It wasn’t me all this time. I felt like a dead individual who is just breathing. My last year trip was an escapism from my own self. My work from home was a torture for me. My dear companions upheld me however I felt miserable about me. Their pieces of advice for my well-being began disturbing me. In all this, my heartbreak was end point of my life.

Everyone use to think I am stuck in my past yet nobody comprehended what I was experiencing.

My family laughed when I wanted to share what’s happening with me. It was just me and my shadow who was in touched and cried.

I attempted to associate with new individuals and invested more energy to come out of my past tried to released it. Got irate on all individuals around.

People laughed because I always wanted to talk to people who were not interested in being with me in any case. I was looking for love all the time. 
Trips / friends/ family / medication/ yoga / nothing worked. A couple of years of fellowship broke. Few months attachment got replaced and I couldn’t do anything and that too didn’t sustain.

Placing pictures on FB to make myself feel great. In any case, toward the day’s end, nothing truly worked. There were times I was just lying in my room, with my phone waiting for people to call me. I started hating food which was so dangerous for my body.

I felt I am getting closer to finishing my own-self.

One day I told myself enough. Every minute I use to make myself aware of my existence, about the activities I am doing. About the emotions, I am feeling.Being aware of the people who supported me. It wasn’t easy, numerous days toward the end I use to fizzle.

And finally, I told depression bye-bye and told Zindagi a very big HI…

Regardless I think what was it? How and why did I go into the depression? What’s more, what was it that made me leave it.
Was that all the medicines which I was in-taking for my health issues? Or, on the other hand, my dear companions who motivated me to be me again.Was is it accurate to say that it was my new energizing employment? Or, ..then again was it the spiritualism which I left long back.

Be that as it may, some place I think it pushed me to begin living once mo. Living like a young lady who was loaded with life some time back.

Just wanted to tell you hi Zindagi with each breath

Mouth watering chat from my MOM’S Kitchen- Pani Puri

Who doesn’t like mouth watering chaat which is unsurpassed most loved for some and it turns out to be more unique when it is from your Mom’s kitchen?

Get ready pani puri is nearly fun; yet eating it is super fun. Pani puri is the most evident and basic name at many places, however there are diverse names in many spots like Puchka, Pakodi , pani ke patashe , patashi, Gup Chup, Tikki, Water Balls and Gol gappe.

Thus, there are distinctive approaches to make Pani Puri. I have utilized boiled moong as it is useful for our well-being with meetha imli (tamarind) chutney and off course with some spicy chutney.

Pani puri consists of the following items :

  1. Puri  – Ready made puri, easily available in the market
  2. Stuffing – Boiled Moong
  3. Pani – Sweet and spicy chutney made from various ingredients.

How about to see the ingredients of the recipe to prepare it?

So, here we go.

Puri

It is effortlessly accessible in Market; there are two sorts of puri from which I generally like Sindhi puri, which is minimal thicker and crisper and kinda make an interesting commotion in your mouth when you eat it.

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  • Stuffing – moong

 I picked moong firstly because it is more beneficial and less demanding to make which spares part of your time.

Heat up the moong sprouts and strain abundance water.

3.1) Preparing spicy chutney or teekha pani

For the Pani: (all the ingredients are to be taken according to the taste and quantity)

Grind mint leaves, coriander leaves with little water to form a smooth paste with green chilies. Then add rest of  the below ingredients until all blends well.

Add 1 lemon (juice)

1 ½ half tsp kala namak

½ tsp black pepper crushed

Salt and ginge to taste

1 ½ tsps Jal Jeera powder

Place in the fridge to chill or add some ice cubes for instant cooling.

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3.2) Preparing sweet chutney or Imli ka pani

For the Pani: (all the ingredients are to be taken according to the taste and quantity)

Soak tamarind and dates in water. Alternatively you could boil it for 2-3 mins.

Allow to cool remove the seeds of tamarind or dates.

Now grind the pulp of tamarind and dates together with a cup of water until smooth.

Take a pan add the puree of dates and tamarind. Add ½ cup water and mix all nicely.

Also add jaggery powder and all spice powder, mix and simmer for 4-5 mins.

Allow to thicken then switch off the gas.

Place in the fridge to chill or add some ice cubes for instant cooling.

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It is dependably amusing to set it up yet more enjoyable to eat it. So; let have more fun eating it.

Make a small hole in the center of each puri. Insert a small amount of the boiled moong.

Dip each of the puris with the stuffing into the pani so that the pani goes inside the puri.

Now put the whole puri into your mouth.

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Enjoy every bite of it. And keep loving Pani puri

You are breathing but are you living?

I thought I will always put forward my thoughts with the warrior I have in me that is words but after few blogs, I surrendered and don’t know what to compose next? In any case, when I sat down and started wondering that why I began writing my blog? It is because this is something that I truly need to develop myself in. Thus, when I look back in my life I realized I have part to write.  If I wasn’t in the headspace of so many blogs ideas, I wouldn’t’ have written this one.

We all know it takes a lot of endeavors to create our life. By and large, we all have very own existence which is apparently true but after so many years, while living my life I started  realizing and asking these questions to myself  Am I truly living.? Is it me who is living?  Is it always my point of view or Am I doing what I really wanted to do?

Later after so many battles with my thoughts, I realized I am just breathing and not living. I am not conscious enough to live. While struggling in all aspects of our life; which we all go through. At the point when in school, we struggle for marks, when in college competing to get admissions in one of the best college and later in a stage of living as diverse individuals we compete with different people to get a better job. Days passed and so was my life growing.

When I was circling here and there to set myself in a particular occupation without being aware what I really wanted to do. When I was struggling around to look and make great companions, when I was racing to find my true love. I kept my self telling this too shall pass yet at the same time there was something which kept myself far from me. In spite of the fact, that I was free yet at the same time in enclosure. Everything was shady in my head. I was lost battling in my own particular world. I overlooked my identity.

I went through lot of emotions and experiences. There were times when few people who do not merit my fellowship, yet I was still there. When I encountered all the good and bad times; like hopping between all the travel destinations. I was even struggling when love and friendship all was just tangled in my life.

My journey of being me just began when I met variety of individuals from different destinations, diverse culture. Somewhere my trips and my life experiences helped me to grow. Somewhere in the journey of my life, I came across someone who thought me what love is, not to love someone else but rather to love oneself. My friends and family thought me be to confident enough to face the world.

All was just there, so what happened out of the blue when I just bought myself in me? Since the time had come to release all the baggage of undesirable emotions I had in me to set myself free. To became me. I am as growing yet when I look back I have lot to appreciate and happy to be me.  And it truly feels unique to treat oneself like a prince or a princess, to freely breathe and to live each moment.

I gladly observe change in me and all the healed relations around me. I am now me because I am aware of each day. I am aware of each hour to minute to seconds which last to my each breathe. Anyway, this 2017 would you choose and create to genuinely live?

Happy breathing, Happy Living.

 

10 North Indian qualities that turns me on…

​I never knew which part of the world I prefer the most. In my 25th year, I coincidentally chose to go north India (McLeod) and that is the way my travel diaries began. And it’s been 2 years now and my heart is always ready to travel to north. After that trip, I started wondering why north attracts me so much.

Of course it’s the magnificence of India~ nature, mountains universe just drives me crazy, yet there is something more to it and that is NORTH INDIAN BOYS. They just make me fall for them. Of course there is a flip side to it but I am here to talk about the good qualities

1) Looks – The most interesting part in the face of north Indians that attracts me is the beard of the guys. It doesn’t suit everyone but many.  Followed by the tallness in their height.

2) Attitude:  They have care free attitude which is sometimes a disadvantage but sometimes much needed.

3) Travelers: Most of them love to travel. North Indians are basically travelers and inspires many to travel.

4) Love: They can make you fall for them any time. They can make your life mesmerize.

5) Enterprise- They can actually take risk and think big to grow their enterprise. They are focused and always engaged with their work.

6)  Celebration: They are always ready for festivity with mandatory drinks in their gathering list.

7) Cuisine: They have good appetite. North Indians are food lovers.  They have amazing sense of food and the taste.

8) Confidence in their language: I cherish when they talk in Hindi. North Indians are confident about speaking. They are even good in voicing their opinion and debating in circumstances. I think that’s why we have parliament in Delhi.

9) Me time: Most of them are in their own world, spending me time which sometimes leads to carelessness.

10) Ego: I know its a negative emotion which I believe to an extend is okay but not always.

Heaven on Earth ~Mcleodganj

 “A Trip of self actualization”

It’s a time once three friends; reluctant with their choice joined a creative writing course just to do something different from the same old routine.  As the time passed, it was the last day of the course when these three girls met. I, Sharon, and Amisha– course got over but it was start of the new relation – friendship.

Struggling with the words what we learn in creative writing course, we decided to go on a trip and didn’t even bother to meet after that last day of the course. It wasn’t boring for me as over the course I immediately went on a family trip to the USA. We randomly decided to plan a trip; of course through technology, which keeps everyone connected.  We; the threeamigas clueless about each other interest and disinterest and with too many options with the places, we landed up choosing north- the heart of India. Finally, after a month or so it was the time for me to come back from USA and immediately take the same bag and leave for an India trip to Mcleodganj after two days.

Atlas, it was the day to leave with new thoughts, emotions and to look forward to all the new experiences. Terrified, anxious, energized, an excessive number of feelings with too many emotions flowing through our hearts and minds, but the only thing with us was one abrupt unplanned trip- A trip to Mcleaodganj.

It was a one week trip to Mcleodganj and Dharamshala. We decided to board the train from Borivali station to Pathankhot. I and Amisha were waiting at the Borivali station to board the train to Pathankot.  Whereas here Sharon runs around the platform and struggling to switch on; her knock off phone, finally she was there just before the train arrived. The train started so were the talks. We had lots to share; it was not only the journey of a trip that started, but it was another start of threeamigas of being strangers to friends to best friends and that’s how we grew and that’s how our life grew.

Finally, we reached to Pathankot station. Without much help of localize, we ended up paying more to rickshavala to head towards the bus stop to go to Mcleoadganj. Welcoming stranger boys on the trip was another unplanned thing by me. We met them at the Pathankot bus stop and they were helpful to make our journey smooth enough when it came to transport or to search for the stay or roam with them for a day in Mcleaodganj. It took 2 hours to reach to Mcleoadganj and searching the hotel to stay. We stayed in a black magic hotel, the only hotel which has a pub inside it.  We all finally took rest, had fun and dance that night.

Next day early morning, we had good breakfast ‘Parathas’ and started to explore the roads with these boys.  We went to many places and the day got over. It was time for them to leave and start our journey. It seems the actual trip for us started after the boys left.  We; three explored roads, the pubs, monasteries, temples, café’s, met people and my favorite monks.

It was a start of another journey where we went as a visitor discovered individuals who can control us, however then gradually and slowly returned as an explorer. In fact, unplanned trip led us to meet his holiness The Dalai Lama so closely. He was The Dalai Lama for the world but cool dude for me. I can still recall the charm on his face and the experience of seeing him so closely makes my world a happy place to live.

Finally, it was the last day of the trip when we headed towards Dharamshala. The pack of three, unaware about the places to see, but destiny has something amazing for us. It was universe who gave a surprise to our souls, to be in the oneness. Overall, we saw many places like Bhagsu Falls, Namgyal Monastery, Bhagsunath Temple, Church of St. Johns in the wilderness, tea garden, sunset point, but the most and much awaited place which just changed us and made this trip so special in our lives.

It was last sightseeing, where we landed up which was Naddi. Though together but still apart, Naddi made us realize how close we were to the universe, to ourselves, and truly we were that day. We began to look all starry eyed at the mountains at this place.

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It was again time to pack our bags and come back home. This time not with the baggage of thoughts, emotions and experience but a sweet memory, this can’t be captured with lenses of the reflection of your eye but with the oneness of being you. We took the bus to Delhi from Mcleadganj and came back by Flight to our city Mumbai with a fresh perspective in our lives.

So, when are you choosing an unplanned trip to experience the oneness in your life?